mreden

2010

Fri, 01 Jan 2010 10:56:27 GMT

A new year.
A new start. (:

Wed, 30 Dec 2009 12:24:56 GMT

Too much left unsaid.

Fri, 18 Dec 2009 14:39:25 GMT

Meeting people from all walks of life is really interesting.
Time for a change. (:
And it's only the beginning.

Sun, 13 Dec 2009 15:20:12 GMT

will you trust me again? :(

Sun, 13 Dec 2009 12:09:40 GMT

And once again...
Nvm.

As long as you're happy and smiling.
Everything's fine.

Thu, 10 Dec 2009 15:22:11 GMT

My dad is so...Hmmm.

Oh well. At least I now know that he and Roland's parents know each other.
Was discussing the topic on marriage with my dad.
Hmmm..
There's nothing I can do about it.

Thu, 10 Dec 2009 09:18:51 GMT

I want to be selfish.
I want to do things without caring about the consequences.
Just handle them when they come.
But...

I'm not like that.. sigh.

I made it..so what now?

Wed, 09 Dec 2009 15:30:51 GMT

Went for a run with my dad at the reservoir.
At first I was having stitches pain and felt like giving up.
But my dad was really encouraging.

In the end the pain was gone.
And I ran the whole reservoir without stopping. (:

In my mind..I told myself that if I gave up,
I will give you up too.

But I finished the run. So how now?

And you always have to be the first name that I see..

Wed, 09 Dec 2009 09:11:48 GMT

Been focusing my attention on other stuffs these few days.
Sorry for not replying to people on msn because I was afk.

CHINA MAN!?

Tue, 08 Dec 2009 12:31:27 GMT

Outing with Mom today.
We went to have our hair cut.
Stupid hair stylist thought I was my Mom's colleague+from china!
Like. @!#$%^&*&^%#$#. :P
Haha. Fine lo. China man.
I went China and the locals thought I was their local too. -.-

But it was a fun day.

I've decided.
I am putting my all in learning how to invest.
Lets see if I can be a millionaire by 25.

Time to grow and learn how to handle my emotions better.
Who knows. Things might get better in the future too. (:

Mon, 07 Dec 2009 14:04:47 GMT

Artist: Rogers Kenny
Song: You Decorated My Life

All my life was a paper once plain, pure and white
Till you moved with your pen changin' moods now and then
Till the balance was right
Then you added some music, ev'ry note was in place
And anybody could see all the changes in me by the look on my face

And you decorated my life, created a world where dreams area apart
And you decorated my life by paintin' your love all over my heart
You decorated my life

Like a rhyme with no reason in an unfinished song
There was no harmony life meant nothin' to me, until you cam along
And you brought out the colors, what a gentle surprise
Now I'm able to see all the things life can be shinin' soft in your eyes

And you decorated my life, created a world where dreams are a part
And you decorated my life by paintin' your love all over my heart
You decorated my life

___________________________________________________

Heard this song from one of my dad's country music cd.
Nice. (:
I'm still hanging in there... i really miss you. ;(

Word of the day

Sun, 06 Dec 2009 14:45:40 GMT

I have a very idiotic younger brother.

Me: How do you spell retarded?
Brother: E-D-E-N
Me: Wow. So you mean the defination of retarded is Handsome, Talented, Hardworking and Fun.
Brother: ...

Lol. We are both damm rubbish.
It's nice that I can be so carefree with brother.
And not care about anything.
Like how I behave and how I speak.
Just being me.

Home is still in a mess.. ;X

Sun, 06 Dec 2009 04:11:58 GMT

At the end of the day..
All I want is just for you to stop feeling so horrible.
This is one big misunderstanding.
I am not who you think I am. Really.
But there's nothing I can do to make you believe me
since things are this way now.
If only you will read this.

*Warning*
People who are reading this.
Don't bother asking me what is going on.
I will tell you if I need to tell you.
Don't bother finding out by asking around.
You won't want to get involved in this.

Sat, 05 Dec 2009 16:49:49 GMT

I want to talk to you.
But I know I shouldn't talk to you. :(

Sat, 05 Dec 2009 13:16:17 GMT

The magic's gone.

Sat, 05 Dec 2009 04:15:52 GMT

I didn't know.
I'm really sorry for everything.

*Please do not read on if it doesn't concern you*

*FLARE*

~~FUCK~~ ALL YOU PEOPLE WHO CAUSED EVERYTHING.
WHY DO YOU ALL HAVE TO KEEP USING MY NAME.
PUTTING WORDS INTO MY MOUTH.
AND CAUSED ALL THESE SHIT THAT HAPPENED.

*FLARE END*

Sigh.
I hate getting blamed for the things I did not do.
It is not fair. Why is life so unfair.

Fri, 04 Dec 2009 14:59:01 GMT

there's no redemtion..anymore.

Thu, 03 Dec 2009 12:43:47 GMT

I need someone to talk to. :(
But everyone seems busy.
Everyone just isn't there anymore.
We're reaching the end and I'm scared. :(

Age is catching up

Wed, 02 Dec 2009 13:39:37 GMT

Hey Dad. Don't push yourself too hard now.
You're not as young as you think you are.
Please don't be stubborn and do stupid things like overworking your body.
Leave it all to your children. We're old enough to help out now. (:

What's wrong with me.
Something is seriously wrong with me these days.
Getting easily jealous and always walloping in self pity.
And all that jazz. Haha.
I got to pull myself together now. hmmm.

Good Bye.

Thu, 26 Nov 2009 14:58:40 GMT

Good bye to waking up at 5am everyday.
Good bye to the same mother who leaves the condo the same time as me everyday.
Good bye to the indian man and the primary school boy who always wait at the bus stop.
Good bye to the really skinny (anorexic) lady who always ride her bicycle and park it at bedok mrt station before taking the train.
Good bye to the primary school girl who always walk to take the mrt every morning.
Good bye to the husband and wife(plump)who always uses a portable fan to blow her face be it rain or shine and I wonder why.
Good bye to the Bus driver 1 who always send me to work without fail. Just that sometimes he comes in different buses.
Good bye to the security guards at my company.
Good bye to the canteen vendors.
Good bye to my engineers. Thank you for treating me to KFC. (:
Good bye to TUAS. For now.

I'm finished with my SIP report. Now I'm left with Major Project.
Still staying at my Uncle's place. My own house will under renovation till next tuesday I think. So I'm not used to staying at my house, Mingyue. ;P

School's starting next week. <3

it just suddenly struck me that i would love to go on a date with you once more. ;(

2 more days.

Tue, 24 Nov 2009 13:50:23 GMT

2 more days till my SIP ends. :(
Oh well.
Been driving around these few days.
Sending my parents to places.
Dad bought a car already. Not a family car. (:
Got to remember to draw money tmr.
Have to treat my Engineers lunch tmr.

How i wish i can call you any time.
And we will chat about anything till anytime.
Yet it is not really possible. Right?

Back.

Mon, 23 Nov 2009 14:23:23 GMT

My parents are finally back from the US yesterday night.
Went to fetch them and drove them home. Only slept for 3 hours before heading to work.
In any case, I'm not moving home yet. Untill the weekends I guess.
There's just no time to move my belongings home.
Hope my mom doesn't transfer back the internet home now.

Dad wants a family car. Those seven sitter kind.
But I prefer a normal sedan car. :(
Oh well. Buying of car is not for me to decide anyway.

My engineers are really nice now. They are not giving me any work.
They say it's my last week. Just relax and enjoy.
Even ask me to use the time to do my SIP Report. ;D
I only did the outline. Shall try to finish the report by thursday. (:

Ok. I need to replenish my sleep. tata.

Stupid cold weather

Thu, 19 Nov 2009 11:59:10 GMT

Another day full of heavy rain.
Makes me cold and wet.
Makes my heart moody. :(

A gift

Tue, 17 Nov 2009 09:47:18 GMT

My manager is really nice.
He gave me a Cap.
Those caps are supposed to be given to VIP/Guests as souvenirs
when they visit the company.
He even gave me stickers which have the company logo to stick on the car. Lol.

I love the weather today. Hot sunny day.
Hate the cold wet rain the past few days.
Another day of working like a machine but it's ok. I'll finish everything by tmr.
If the Engineers never give me anything new to do that is.

Is this how you were feeling?

4 more days

Mon, 16 Nov 2009 13:01:04 GMT

4 more days to go before I moved back to my own house.
Shall save my emotionally long draggy post till Friday. ^^
Work today was tough. But still. I love to work. (;