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Makes me cold and wet.
Makes my heart moody. :(
He gave me a Cap.
Those caps are supposed to be given to VIP/Guests as souvenirs
when they visit the company.
He even gave me stickers which have the company logo to stick on the car. Lol.
I love the weather today. Hot sunny day.
Hate the cold wet rain the past few days.
Another day of working like a machine but it's ok. I'll finish everything by tmr.
If the Engineers never give me anything new to do that is.
Is this how you were feeling?
Shall save my emotionally long draggy post till Friday. ^^
Work today was tough. But still. I love to work. (;
Not the weather but more of the scene I saw.
All the Engineers were soaking wet. Epic scene.
They got stuck at a nearby coffeeshop due to the heavy rain.
But lunch time was long over. So they got no choice but to run back.
The weather is really weird nowadays.
It was really sunny in the morning before the heavy rain.
Similar to how I feel everyday. Weird.
why can i still say that i love you.
I really don't know what I am doing.
Talking to you although you have no interest in knowing.
Shall run away into dreamland now.
Hope I don't end up in nightmareland.
"We can't gain if we can't let go.
There's no love without tears,
there's no happiness without sacrifice,
and there's no forever without goodbyes..."
Wow?
Wow. I nv thought I will get to know another intern friend.
This guy is from NTU. His name is Greg.
Nice guy. His department just moved into my office so he is located beside me.
We realised that Interns are just there to do "Sai Kang".
But it beats having nothing to do. (:
I took the whole day to finished up labelling one cabinet.
This cabinet is like the worst cabinet of all.
The files are really messy. And they are the thinner kind.
The cabinet has a total of 78 files. So it takes really long for me to locate.
Relocate. Copy down information. Do up labels. Print labels. Replace labels.
I guess I'm halfway done with the cabinets.
Done with one side. Left the other side.
Plan to finish them up by this week. (:
I'm on a challenge now. Hmmm.
Anyway. I think she's talented.
Cindy Yen. Although she looks like Cindy Wang.
Today was a fun day.
And I made $ too. (:
Oh my.
This was the scent of your hair.
Coincidence coincidence.
Work's been pretty fun.
I guess I'm a workaholic.
The engineers have been giving me lots of work to do. (:
And work does help you focus.
I'm actually hoping for another 5 weeks of SIP instead of doing Final Year Project. =\
But it's not possible.
Anyway. I'm on off this thursday. (:
Off from SIP work to part-time work. ;X
Helping my aunt's friend at Riz Carlton.
He will be having a photoshoot from 8am-6pm.
So I'm there to help out.
The pay is more than my SIP daily allowance anyway. :P
Hmmm.
I came to realise that you had played a significant part in my life.
There are so many habits gained from the time spent with you that I can't shake off.
Even though it was only about 6-7 months.
But everytime I see these habits coming out from me. I think of you.
Oh well.
My parents are flying home in less than a month's time.
Less freedom? =\
Broke down during lunch time at work today.
Luckily no one saw me. (:
Was having some disagreement with my mom on the phone
when I just got all so emotional.
And started crying.
Maybe because somehow I had not really let that big baggage of emotions go.
Crying really does help you throw off the heavy load that's on you.
But still. I think I am fine now.
I got to find a new focus. Hmm..
I finally know what you're thinking.
I guess I'm moving on.
Thank you.
But I guess the numb shield is back on again. (:
i'm finally meeting you 2 weeks after that incident.
i thought i'm already over it. and i'll be fine tmr.
but now. i'm feeling really scared. to meet you and face you.
maybe this numbness shield will only hold for so long.
i'm at loss of what to do.
Although things are over now..
I am still feeling these warm fuzzy feelings deep inside..
I guess I just need time.
Any injury needs time to recover.
Like a cut on your finger or burnt skin.
It's the same for the heart.
Thanks Ze for asking me to go over your place to mahjong.
And also to send me home.
You are a great friend. (:
Thanks Meng Yee for always picking up my call.
Well...most of the time. :P
You are also a great friend. (:
Sorry Roland. That I couldn't really make you feel better.
It's suicidal to let 2 people who are suffering from heartache to meet. :(
And. you. I want you to have your breathing space too..
I'm strong.
Although it still hurts so bad that I feel numb.
But I won't do stupid things.
Just need time. (:
Yet for now..
I'm still in love with you.
I guess I hold it too long and eventually exploded.
No matter how hard I'm trying to get things back to normal. I can't.
Or rather, I'm not given the chance to.
In the first place. There wasn't any chance to begin with.
Was everything that I did a big mistake in the first place?
You're not really helping with this situation.
Maybe you have always been like this.
Trying to run away. Ignoring difficult situations.
Even after all this. I can't bring myself to think of you negatively.
I guess I'm just a fool in love.
I always told myself to do my best and have no regrets.
But now it seems that I regret doing my best.
Maybe everything is my fault to begin with.
Just me.
I told myself not to blog about this.
But here I am.. Because the pain is too much to bear.
How I wish I can always inject myself with the numbness.
That only seems to work in the day.
So I can just be indifferent to everything.
In the end. I just want you to not run away and face up to things.
